...become entirely anti-social and spend the extra time training for soccer, because I like soccer so much, but I am not good at it. If I was good at it, I would like it even more. And what's the point of being social?
This is the caffeine talking. I am done with caffeine. It makes me flighty and irritable. What good is that?
I am now posting about pro...May Banquet. I had a good time at prom, which is such news to me, because every other time I've had at prom (or any other Lakeside dance for that matter) has ranged from OK to bad. This one had several things going for it. Eisenhower got to perform for a while, and that is always something that I am fond of. I also went with Becca, who made the trip down for it, which I am happy for. It was enjoyable, although I tended to worry if she was having a good time, or feeling awkward not knowing anyone, but she was pretty reassuring. I worry about things like that. All in all, it was really great. Hooray for an actually good dance.
I got my ACT scores back today, and now I am considering the options of Pastor track at MLC or something else at a big college. Before the scores, I was pretty close to being set on MLC, but now that they are back, I have been pretty encouraged (mostly by my parents) to seek out other options too. It comes down to what I really want to do. I'm just worried that whichever I pick, I'll at some point wonder what could have been if I picked the other. If I go pastor track, then will I one day wish I had chosen to go to Madison and get a great job and be rich and live in a big house with my family? If I go the other way, will I wake up every day feeling unfulfilled and hating how worthless my job seems to something with an eternal impact such as the ministry? Do I even know what I'm good at?
Before this ACT thing, I heard people talking about how hard their college search and planning for their future has been, and I laughed to myself, because I was able to take it mostly in stride. I thought I had it pretty well figured out. Now I realize that it is a little harder that it seemed. It's like someone is telling me that I need to have my life planned out by next year. I can only pray, because if it were just me making this decision, I would be pretty well screwed. I guess I have to just realize that whatever happens, it will work out for the best. We will see.
I guess school ends soon. Ya know? I have one week that is sort of a joke of a week, with a lot of crazy schedules that translate roughly into "less school" and then exams the next week. Then it's over. Then I only have one more year left in this high school thing. I suppose I have to grow up, then. Learn responsibility, start liking coffee, invest in mutual funds, etc... I absolutely must make the most out of this last year and these two summers I will have, because my other high school years seem kind of wasted, but this is kind of the last chance to be at this age I suppose.
Everyone goes through this; I am so cliche. It will fall into place. I have to repeat that to myself. If God himself be for me, I may a host defy.
2 comments:
I enjoy the labels.
There's no shame in an intelligent person being a pastor. There actually have been quite a few intelligent pastors in the past. Reading their writing and evaluating things for yourself actually makes this quite an intellectually stimulating path to travel. Granted, the requirement of becoming proficient in reading at least four languages means that the schoolwork isn't a cakewalk either.
Granted, I am a little bit biased because I am a somewhat gifted person who's on the pastor track. But, I would encourage you to continue giving it thought. You definitely have the gifts to be a very good pastor.
I'd also encourage you to look at what else might interest you. If you decide on the pastor track and you haven't really looked at anything else, you're going to be more likely to second guess yourself. But, if you pursue those interests now, you'll be more sure of your decision....whatever it may be.
You're in my prayers, and I wish you God's blessings with this decision.
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