The First Week of July

Judy
Could anyone be loved anymore than I love you?
Does it hurt you too?

But Judy
I've been feeling small too long.
I love you so
but something's wrong.

I come running when you want me here
and when you want me to I disappear.
Judy.

I knew if I made it easy for you
you'd settle for me, yeah eventually.

But Judy,
I can't be myself anymore.
It's way too hard
being loved by default.

And I can't do this any longer.
The vacuum left is so much stronger
Judy.

Judy you know I'm not mad anymore
at least most of the time
but it could take a while
and I've been living just to see you smile
every once in a while.

Tears fall
but that don't mean nothing at all.
Just cause I said it first
yeah that's why it hurts ya

And Judy
I won't be your bitch anymore
and follow you around
and hold the door.

I'm not sorry if you're not sorry too
and you're not sorry until I make you.
Judy.

Give Judy My Notice - Ben Folds

What a difference a year makes.

"Hell will be forever for rent"

Oh, the evangelist Billy Sunday, you had high hopes for prohibition, but they did not turn out the way you had hoped. I really love reading about prohibition and the 20's in general. I do it every time history is boring. I must have read the chapter entitled "Life in the Roaring Twenties" five or so times over by now. These "I am" speeches we have to give, where we dress up a person, and give an autobiographical speech as them, they were scheduled as such that I miss being able to do someone from the 1920's by a few years. So I can't be Billy Sunday and preach against the evils of alcohol, and I can't be Al Capone and explain how my career as a "Furniture Broker" got me where I am today. It's all right, history still interests me, but the roaring twenties, those are just really fascinating to me.

Tonight is the night before our first play performance. We've been working on "Cheaper by the Dozen" since about February I believe, and it's been a pretty good time. Most of the people in the cast were already my friends before we started working on it, with the exception of the two freshmen, who I like a lot now. I guess there is hope for that class after all. This will be a weekend of craziness, 4 performances in 3 days. And after that, well, prom.

I'm planning on actually enjoying prom this year. What a novel idea. I'm really looking forward to it. That's all for now. I'm sure I'll discuss it more afterwards.

This past weekend was the talent show, which Becca and Bethy came down for. Thanks, you two. It really does mean a lot. I feel kind of bad, because they had to ride all that way down to see us play for like 3 minutes, and I don't think we even played that well. Granted, a musician is his own harshest critic, but it's been better. Oops, I digress. Anyway, thanks. You definitely hold the distance record for coming to see us play.

Aside from that, I just felt I should make a post and all. I should learn more songs on acoustic, requests anyone? Not that more that 2 or 3 people even read this, but we need stuff for prom. Until then, stay safe, stay sober, and enjoy whatever weather we have. It's all good.